so .. this is it... 2 more days and the end of the greatest years of my life so far are coming to an end.

I wouldn't change a thing.

I havent updated in a while as usual, but...

Some of you, need a reality check. I'm so tired of people complaining about their horrible life. Your life fuckin rocks compared to like the homeless people, and the millions of people starving all over the world, and you just dont get it. People all over would kill to have the life we have, and people just take it for granted and it makes me sick to my stomach. I know they don't mean a thing to you, but they should. They should be a reminder to you of how goood you have it. I'm so tired of all the people around me who complain about petty little things, and people who talk about themselves, and only themselves.  You know, when u put things into perspective when you get mad about something, suddenly, you realize, what ur problem is, is not as big of a deal as you think it is. Well, that's for me anyway.The little things that matter so much to you now, won't mean a damn thing in 10 years. Of course everyone complains, but to constistently take your life for granted that was almost fuckin handed to you on a plate, that makes me lose respect for a lot of people. To just throw away your life, when you have almost everything somebody can dream of, i dont agree with at all. Everyone needs to stop complaining about their life, and start living it. And i dont care how cliche that sounds. Everyone also needs to grow the fuck up and stop being so immature about everything. I just don't get it. Hopefully, when all of you do grow up a little bit, and mature just a tad, you'll understand what the hell I'm talking about.

No matter how bad you think you have it, there is always somebody who has it worse.

Current Mood: thankful

yea so my road test is in like a half an hour and im doing anything and everything to keep my mind off of it, im nervous, but im not nervous, im confident, but i know i will proabably fail.

This day has bee super duper ever since i woke up
A- I woke up at 1030 which is super because i only get to wake up late like once every 3 monthsd
B- maury was on
C- price is right was on
D- me and my dad went to the bagel store and got some breakfast together
E- I went tanning for free
F-  I got my haircut by the same lady i had last time and i was excited because i didnt know if i was gonna get her or not

But then tehre was my mom, always bringing me down in my happiest moments.
She called me 5 times this morning
Once was to yell at me to go practice drixing with my dad at 10:00 in the morning
another time to see if i was driving
another time to tell me she was coming home and that i could take her car for the test
another time to ask me if my dad picked me up

Then when i came home i said hi to her and it was around 1:30 and shes like are u ready to go im like uhhh.... ok? i guess are we gonna practice driving? shes like I TOLD YOU TO PRACTICE THIS MRONING DID I NOT!I just got in ashley!" im like maaaaa i only asked bercause my road test is in an hour and a half ... shes like welll i told u, and i just walked out screaming oh my god

she is the downer of my life. And when i fail my road test shes gonna be the frist one to say that i shoulkd have practiced this morning and that i shouldnt have planned it so early

Why are the most important people in my life, the ones to always make me feel like shit?

Current Mood: nervous
Current Music: just like heaven- tbs

hm updating about the first day of school seems to be a trend, and i am a follower.

Hmm, bbq was gay, and expected to be. The whole day was kinda good, up untill 8th period my day just went downhill from there.
I got ms fitzgerald.

"We are going to be doing lots and lots of work this year, so get a looottt of looseleaf."

SUPER!

then, i missed my bus for vball game, which, everyone told him i was coming, but he left anyway. Hm gay? very. Then i didnt have a ride home, but luckily, amanda garzon drove me home. Bleh, i hadda take it, i had no other way home. She was coming my way anyway. 

Ali's quitting, again. So I'll be alone, again. :-( FEEL BAD FOR ME WILL YA!? Na its not that big of a deal, its just vball, and i'm just gonna stick it out the next two months, i don't care how mad he gets at me for not coming to some games, because there are so many more things important than volleyball this year, and im not gonna stress out about it at all. It's just not worth it. He's the one thats gonna have to deal with me, not me dealing with him. 

Yea anddddd me and chris, same exact schedule. Lockers, right across from eachother. Seats in class, right next to eachother. G.O. with eachother every day. There is no escape. Please help me god. 

But overall, I like my classes and I wouldn't change a thing, except for the fact that me and chris are gonna be attatched at the hip more than ever. AND YOU DIDNT THINK WE COULD SPEND ANYMORE TIME TOGETHER, WELL U WERE WRONNGGG. 

ahhh im done,

Current Mood: pessimistic
Current Music: jerk it out- caesers palace

i am supremely bored. To the max!
Chris is hanging out with his soccer team again. This is like the 5th night this week. Hmph. I know it sounds gay, BUT I'M BEING REPLACED! lol na, i dont really care. I am just really bored. I probably coulda made plans tonight but, idk i just didnt feel like going through the hassle, and rides are a hassle, boo. 

today, work went by fast. bla bla bla bla.
I just lead a boring life, thats about it. 
my sisters boyfriend is home, so she hasnt hung out with me. Everyone else is gone.
My mom told us not to make plans tonight because tonight was "family night."
Uhh,,,, she was making plans to go out at like 2 this afternoon. 
She apparently forgot, and I am the only one who remebered and didnt make any plans.
Family, psh, what was she thinking.

Idk bored still, this just wasted like 5 minutes, whatever.

Night.

ugh
2-a-days
Killing me
yesterday was the start of tryouts and it wasnt that bad
But i didnt even sit down before the next one started because me and chris went shopping
P.s. dont go to tranger outlet one, go to the second one, much better. 
2nd day today, my arm is killing, aboslutlely killing me. I actually went numb at a point.
i actually cleaned my room today. I'm about to go eat something and rest


At some point tonight i plan on printing out my hair donation form, and finally giving away my hair for good

Oh i got a haircut by the way, durr.

And i plan on totalling up how much money i spent on clothes so far, so i can commit suicide. 

Later.

ciao, the last couple of days have been super busy and super fun.
Wednesday- holy moly six flags, so much fun, with ali and steve and chris. we got stuck in traffic, and thank god we left like an hour early. we rode el toro, the superest ride of them all. We also got the flash pass which made things so much easier. overall a good day.

Thursday- I had work, booo, but then i had a super time with finn and brian, probably be the last time i see them for a longggg time, which is really sad, because they're so cool and i love hanging out with them, i wish i hung out with them more throughout the year. :-( we watched a league of their own and got cold stone.

Friday- Went to fire island all day with my mom and my sister, went to this really pretty house that a show was filmed in, but it got cancelled, so we'll never know about it. But it was a really cool house and fun time. Then i went to a party later on for like an hour, i was super tired. 

Saturday- took the day off of work, and then hung out with the twins most of the day, we went to this like nature walk thing called avalon, and its so pretty. Unfortunatly i lost my glasses in the pond, but thats  ok, a way to remember the day i suppose haha. but the walk was very pretty i suggest it to lots, it's in stony brook. Then! the Jacks mannequin concert. Holy crap they are so good. Such a good performer and singer, everything he sang sounded so good and almost exactly how it does on the cd. He is my newest love. such a babe. Rawr. ;-) Then O.A.R. which were good if u like country musicals. Which i don't but whatever my sister liked it.

Today- i had work and it weent by pretty fast, and now im getting ready to go to chris's, shocker. and maybe ill clean my room before he picks me up

Tomorrow me and jackie are hanging out i dont care if the world explodes, its happening! once and for all!

Current Mood: content

hi
ive been a busy little bee. 
friday worked then went to chris's soccer game, they lost, dur.
saturday worked then then went to my cousins bbq and ree came home.
sunday worked and then hung out with chris and played sonic <33333333
monday (today) worked and then pedicure, and then tried to take a nap, failed.
it's damn near impossible to have peace and quiet when my sisters home.
tonight, steves with everyone and then applebees? im not hungry tho really. 
but before applebees, KYLE XY! WEE!! favorite show baha.
so tomorow will be my 6th day in a row working, and it sucks just as much as it sounds.
but i made mad dough yo. 8-)
i WAS supposed to hang out with jackie on sunday but she FORGOT! little bastard :-) 
so maybe tomorrow she will REMEMBER!!!! JACKIE REMEMBER!!
then wednesday, six flags weee!!!!! supposed to be super nice outside, superb! 
i'm really into all those weird technoy songs jessee made me download, i love everyone of them.
Me myself and I have decided that its just not worth all the money to go to the bahamas
A lot of money that i would have saved up by the end of the summer, but, i will be dead ass broke after.
A month of 2 after, is college, i need money for college wayyyy more than i need money for a trip
Nobody me and chris really hang out with is going on the trip anyway
And a week before the trip, prom, prom weekend, and may is the most expensive month of life for me.
( mothers day, dads birthday, sisters birthday ) ( all of that this year + prom + moms graduation)
There's a huge expense every single month for me, and this money that i saved up and be put to so much more things than a trip.
Plain and simple, its just not worth the thousand something dollars.
ESPECIALLY, when i can plan a cruz myself, for a LOT cheaper.
So the 600 I have saved up, will more than likely go into the bank to earn interest untill college. 
Or maybe it will be used for prom, who knows. 
I really don't care, as long as it's being used for something other than a single trip.
i saw rachel today at my bagel store, that lovey, shes going to the jacks mannequinn concert too
Then I came home, and my sister was ordering tickets for the concert too. Ha.
I have a really bad rambling problem. 
bye!

Current Mood: thirsty
Current Music: woozy- faithless

bitches and hoes. hung out with the infamous twins last night, jack and di, always a good time with those ladies. 
had work this morning, and it super sucked, i was in the worst mood and i dont know why, maybe cause my pod pod was being a whore. I charged it for a good 47630 hours yesterday and i woke up this morning and it was STILL charging, and im walking to work, i dont get half way down the block and its like, your battery is low, please insert power. im like ILL INSERT SOME POWER RIGHT TO THIS MOTHERS FACE IN TWO SECONDS!, but then i charged it at work, and it was fine on the waty home? it works when it wants to and its a homosesuale. 

side note- im starting to peel, icky. 

tonight is christopher luvkins soccer game, again. lol i'm not too thrilled ab watching cause theyre gonna loose super bad. sowwy chris's soccer team :-\ 

work again tomorow, shocker, and this time i have to walk because my dad is picking up my sis from albanyy, i think she dyed her hair purple, i mean blonde, but it looks so not natural for her, it's like a purple, u feel me ? 

i bought more hair products at that store that has eveyrhting for 50% off, i just cant help my self. i have like an entire shelf of shampoo, conditioner, and hairspray just WAITING to be used. as of right now i have about 4 bottle of shampoo, and 5 bottles of conditioner, and 2 and a half bottles of hairspray. EEK, ash your obssesed with cheap hari products stop

and as i ramble on...........

im sorry i have so much to say and nodbody at the moment to say it to, or who hasnt heard it already, and LJ is the only person who will listen right now. 

p.s. download "everything in its right place" by radiohead if ur into funky music. its super good. new favorite song of the week

Current Mood: pensive
Current Music: everything in its right place- radio head

yo yo, listen to missy elliot, shes my black lady :-) and so is jayz, anywho

yesteryda went to the beach, super hot out, and got bit by flies like 2385639 times, but it was a nice little day out with the peeblet. 
then we had our super duper last game of volleyball and we lost YAY! cause that means we dont have to play the rest of the summer. wee!! its over!!! ......... for a month lol then it starts back up te 28th or something gay like that with double practices everyday untill school starts, like is thast necessary? NO its not. 

ppl are really gay siometimes, and its a shame i have to spend the whole year with them this year :-) someones gonna get drop kicked by the end of sept., the way i see it. 

today, i worked, and then i came home and took a mother flippin 6 hour nap. superb. im still having weird sleeping patterns, no bueno. 

tomorow, no work wee!! wanna go to the beach but i probnably wont do so considering i dont know anyone whos going. then chris's soccer game later on during the day. 
later